First of all I had no clue about the accident, George. I really really hope you're doing better now. I'm sorry you'd to go through so much pain. Speaking about pain, there's so much pain inside of you it speaks in every word. Please come out of the dark place and do what makes you happy. Death surely is beautiful as it puts us out of this life's misery but what about the life after that. Don't you think the cycle may continue? So try to find happiness and peace in things that you can and keep sharing such stories so you feel lighter and happier. Hope you get well soon my friend. 😊😊🌸🌸